felt veri down. mood is currently emo... haiz... i felt more n more of left out le.. even tough usually got tis feell.. but felt more todae.. it ws partiallyy due to virtual world de prob... been plyin psp monster hunter wif friens.. ts,nais n jun hao usual... so todae, nais n jun hao gone up to hr 4 le.. den well mi nerhx?still left at hr 3.. haiz.. evrytime dey dun wanna help mi up frst de.. den help jun hao, nais dey all/// haiz.. perhaps sum ppl might say i do not hav d skill up to standard yet.. but, i agree tht.. but cant jus let mi go up frst? i felt so left out.. s if i m lyk extra.. ply or not ply is nvm.. got time jiu up.. no time nvr up.. haiz.. felt so extra.. i felt lyk i not part of deir frien.. haiz.. usually dey laugh coz becoz my character funni or wad.. but it does hurts mi sumtimes.. its jus tht i nvr say.. jus laugh wif dem.. actually i felt d other way sumtimes.. haiz.. wo hen fan.. eve game can bring probs.. haiz.. sad.. john,duck r away so for jamboree.. den wen dey come back, dey sure chiong wif ts de to hr 5.. well, den i wuld currently stuck up at dunno where.. haiz.. skill lvl reali sux.. dey wuld jus say tht.. but i did try my best to practise n try to learn.. but seems lyk dey felt tht i m always d noob no matters wad.. haix.. sad sad.. tmr result commin out le.. wether n1 or n2? i jus wish i hav sum sense of belonging wif my friens.. i dun wanna feel tht way le.. haiz.. sadness..