y do tings turn out tis way? i guess i culd say i kind of hate my parents for de way dey be... being so overprotcive of mi... i dun lyk it... i jus felt lyk i m losing back tings tht i own before... still remember pri sch days... it was a veri amusing ting... my parent dun let mi cross any road since i was born till end of pri 6... dey scared until lyk tht.. so i was end up cannot cross any road wif out my parent.. even cant go a short distance opp d sch to buy sum food to eat.. hmmm still nidda sneak over dere secretly dun let my father noe.. if let him noe, i will be caned.. wondering tht time.. i hate my parent... i hate dem for being so protective n wuldn open deir hearts a little more.. y?? haiz felt more become lyk a gal liao coz well for gals, parent afraid more.. haiz aiyoo... nvm dun wanna talk about tht.. jamboree is d end for mi le.. after so much persuation by tryin all sorts of crazy methods.. still cant go.. haiz i dunno i shuld hate my parent bah... haiz y?? i jus dun get it sumtimes y other ppl de parent can understand wad deir children wan n my jus cantz?? i felt sad n emo sum times... y?? haiz it my fate to end up over here... even tough my life is average compared to others but i dun lylk tis kind of life... so.. haiz i prefer to chose d other life... haiz... reali sad sad sad about tis ting... i cant go.. haiz.. todae got back sci test.. pass! yea! tht duck fail.. god damm.. tink he sci pro ha.. lol.. keep sayin tis topic he damm pro de wif his tuition cher help but den leh? sai kang lar.. haha stupid.. next time dun action so much lar.. pe was cool!! ply gymastic pyramid.. hav to form human pyramid.. wah den ended up wif tau pok ikithiari tht he shout tht he cant breathe.. haha coz so many ppl stack up onto him.. i ones also tio before on d last layer... so pain felt lyk my heart tio squash.. i m sorri i culdn pet he wif u all durin d stackin of ppl... sorri guys.. ext time i will try my best again.. recess yj n gang dunno wad go pull down my pats.. ji bai.. all tag siah but luckly noting much happen s luckily i wear boxer to sch.. haha otherwise i cant imagine too... after sch was dere alone.. i dunno y.. a feel kept controllin mi.. i try to but keep tinkin aout bad tings.. emoing.. facing d bad n unexpected outcome.. i felt lyk i can c d future wad will happen n tht ended up mi tinkin of tings i shuld be tinkin.. i felt tht i goin crazy soon if i cant stop tinkin.. aiyo y i cant control myself?? sumtimes jus came straight tto my mind n causes mi to feel le... haiz perhaps d cure is not given to mi to cure my prob... haiz y?? i hav felt lyk a loss of tings le... my parent treated mi tis way n d 1 i luved treated mi tis wway.. y?? i onli left to my **sis** n ***bro*** le.. i jus culdn imagine if dey were to treat mi same way..i wuldn wan to imagine... i might do tings i... haiz i wuldnt wanna dscuss tis topic le.. i wanna end tis from a clen strt.. i will try... but hope ppl do tings wuldn affect n let mi recall back tings i shuldn be tinkin de.. tryin n tryin....