todae was also a tired day due to ndp training again liao n jemie sir came back lor.. haiz not so tired den d other days but was hot weather shining at us d sun shine.. aiyo boots was veri warm n hot lyk burnin on fire... haiz todae dunno y felt my hands reali heavy to march lor... haiz so knock onto sum1.. pai seh... haiz also jamboree cannot go le... god dammm... cry last night after quarreling wif my parents till almost hiting him... haiz i was upset y other ppl can n my parent lyk tht de? tinkin also of sy n douglas so make mi cry.... haiz nobody culd console mi.. i was all dere alone.. reali wanna talk to any of my beluved mei but felt tht i m jus givin dem probs n disturbing dem onli so i decided to keep tis to myself.. haiz wish sum1 was dere for mi... haiz.. geo test todae reali pro lor.. is a test but so much talkin n can walk around to talk to friens.. haha dey reali dun care about tht cher lor.. she was not fierce but in d end she cant lyk take it coz mostly of us dunno how to do n will fail, den she kind of pity us jiu let us open bk do structured question... yea! but i still dun reali noe wad to write.. haiz... tinkin n tinkin sy bah??? since last ice skating till now, nvr talk aniting to her before s in face to face.. i reali hope to but jus dun hav tht courage to talk to her coz i was afraid she wuld giv mi tht coldness again.... haiz felt tht so much to talk to her but wen face to face, den can forget it le.. douglas leh?? onli care more about gals den boiz n more about sy... i felt... wad can i do leh??? i m jus a stupid u noe? haiz i shuldn exsists in tis world de... i felt lyk doin sily tings.. haiz but tings make mi tink alot... i shuld not but if sumtimes i nvr suddenly tink of tis.. i might... haiz sad tings is hurting mi! i jus........ haiz..... wad about my mei care about mi tis days nerhx?? it was simply also coldnesss back bah... usually i do sms to ask dem how r dey but now realise a ting... sms to dem, dey will felt irritaing de.. i notice le.. haiz so far until now, all i hav de mei, all nvr sms before to mi de unless i took d initiave to ask dem... haiz y is tings goin bitter all along? y i hav a feeling tht i hav lost sumting from all my mei... dey has let mi felt tht i was treated in tht coldness n sadly way... i was wondering y??? wad hav i done?? perhaps is not much talkin to dem in sch bah den perhaps it is... but i hope tings wuld gone better lyk last time wen i use to talk to dem in sch but i also felt tht dey also dun wanna talk to mi le... haiz i miss talkin to sum of my precioous... haiz....